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To All the Boyz

When I was younger  there was a boy he was worthy  and kind one day, "unexpected" God told him not to love me he listened  and so did i now, years later sometimes I wake up wondering if I proved Him right  ______________________________ My brain wasn't fully developed did you know that happens at 25 7 years shy for me 2 for him when he said goodbye the part of my brain that didn't exist yet moved on quietly it didn't scream it didn't drive to his house in the middle of the night it didn't put angry scars on her arms, (for attention, they told me) it didn't get mad at God for the unanswered prayers it just  moved on quietly and she was so attractive for it ______________________________________ When we think of him we smile God and me  we loved him  and he was told to love us  but sometimes love is not acceptance  sometime love  isn't enough I worry when he thinks of us God and me he doesn't smile  not really would we have really lov...